Friday, December 17, 2010

Maker.

Exerpt from Orson Scott Card's Alvin Maker Series.

I can't figure out if my milling is Making or Unmaking. The stones grind the grain and break it apart into dust, so that's Unmaking. But the dust is flour, and you can use it to make bread and cake that the maize or wheat can't be made into, so milling might be just a step along the road to Making. Is grinding flour Making or Unmaking?

I taught a girl how to feel emotions. She used to hide beneath a calm facade, and dealt with all of life's problems on her own. She was content, and her calm outward appearance was something to be marveled at by friends and family; to be copied. For her face spoke of peace and radiated calm to those who knew her but slightly. Her inner thoughts and turmoil never surfaced and others never knew. Then I taught her to feel. To cry. To smile and laugh. She tells me, "I'm broken." I, in my stupidity and desire to help her, ask, "How can I fix you?" She replies, "Undo what you have done, unmake me." I argue back, "Is it not better to feel some emotion and show it to loved ones so they may help you?" She retort, "No! I was happy the way I was. I was self sufficient and independent! I don't want to rely on others." Me: "You don't have to rely solely on yourself, there are others that will help you. Neither do you have to give up your self sufficiency. It is but a compromise. In time you will see that is better to be human and feel these emotions." She doesn't believe me.
We no longer argue about it. It seems that with time she has grown to accept this change in herself. But she still remembers the period when she was "unbroken" and sometimes wishes for it.
Did I Fix her or did I Break her?
Did I Maker her better or did I Unmake her?

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