Tuesday, April 20, 2010

i hope you read this, actually it doesn't quite matter..cause matters of importance and substance will be sent via our messages.

i took my ochem midterm.
easy/medium
probably made some stupid mistakes
scratch* i know i made a stupid mistake: I just hope I guessed right.

i dream of you.
holding you in my arms, and being completely at peace.
the zelda remix i sent you is in my dreams now...music of peace and happiness...

i wonder how i came to love magic and fantasy and acquire that insatiable hunger for magical worlds..mystical places that twist the heartstrings and make you weep w/ wonder and joy...
i guess its all in the child's upbringing.
give the child love and care, and you ground him in the material world: in reality- for all their needs are taken of...they never need to imagine something unattainable..they never have to lust too hard after something. their whims and desires are satisfied...they may not directly acquire the object of their desire- but their whim is placated by an object of equal or greater value.
'papa i want a lego set" well son..i dont wana buy it for you..so im going to take you to disneyland
-_-
i heard my uncle say that to my cousin...(sorta twice removed cousin)

now you throw the child in a busy family, one that does not pay attention too much to the child.
does the child grow needy?
no, they learn independence..their imagination blossoms..they find other ways to occupy their whims..their desires..
books, art, music..daydreaming..toymaking..
the deprived child makes do...
the wonders of a child's mind...how malleable..yet so resilient.

i want our child to be spoiled...but also deprived..
i love you


Monday, April 19, 2010

I did not answer your question of what the nicest thing I ever did for a girl.
Honestly, I have to say: me breaking up with them...for I was cruel and manipulative, and they didn't deserve it. They deserved better. Thats the nicest thing: me teaching them a valuable life lesson. We learn from our mistakes. I was their mistake, a fading memory that does not cause pain or anguish, but teaches a lesson. For I am an indecent human being, and that is the greatest gift I can give others, the ability to separate the decent from the indecent.
hello.